Recently, in my psychology class, we were learning about self-esteem and self-image.
Me being me, I didn’t really stop to think about my own personal self-esteem/image. It wasn’t until I reached a portion of the assignment where we were required to write a whole alphabet of positive adjectives, that we would use to to describe ourselves.
Also, get this: For each letter of the alphabet, it had to have TWO positive describing words. TWO. I can barely think of five positive words to describe myself, under normal circumstances, but to come up with fifty-two positive words about me??
Sitting back in the uncomfortable, wooden chair, I let out an exasperated sigh as I read the instructions once more. Ya’know, normal people would start whippin’ out compliments for themselves, left and right; key word: normal. Not that I’m not normal, I’m just really awful about positively describing myself. Sitting back once more–mentally, this time around–I realized that the fact that I could not come up with more than just the five generic words I had, was a teensy problem. Self-evaluation time.
After doing a little research (and when I say research, I mean a five-second Google search), I was able to find a starter list of different words (seriously, God bless Google). For whatever odd reason, I was slightly taken aback by some of the words. Just the mere sight of them made me really think about the type of person that I am, and the way people would describe me, if they were given this exact same list of words.
It was this thought that made me realize that there’s so much more to me than just, “the five generic words.” This thought has also motivated me to be a better person overall.
When people think of me or describe me to others, I don’t want them to describe me as rude, timid, or boastful. No! I want to be known as kind, bold, and sacrificial! How do I expect to reach the world if I’m someone who’s bitter and fearful? It was this heart-wrenching thought that inspired me to step out, a little.
I’ve always wanted to do some type of blog where I can just ramble about whatever is on my heart or mind, but I’ve always been so fearful of what others would say; if they even read it! Well, that, and I’m just so bad with procrastination (haha). However, wanting to scrape away that “fearful” label, I decided to start the said, “blog.”
I don’t claim to be a great writer or someone with perfect ideas to write about (God knows I’m not!), but writing is something I’ve always had a passion for. So if, by some miracle, this, “blog,” makes it onto the screens of other’s devices, I hope they acknowledge that I’m merely trying to reach my world in a way that I know best.
Always desire to inspire.